the obsessions of the m/

I felt the sun’s rays touch my cheek and it felt so warm again. After all the cold summer nights and the darkness that I’ve been through, there was absolutely no way I was gon’ to trade the beautyand warmth that I felt on that very morning. But the feeling didn’t last long. For in my mind, a flash of memory came back..

The scenic place was there again. The lake was serene and it was evergreen. It’s so beautiful that it hurt so bad. Oh, and there it is! The tree where he wrote the most undefying words that I’ve encountered in my whole life!

FAM LOVES JANAH

Oh such sweet words! But what a terrible lie!

The birds were chirping and the leaves were rustling. The sound was calm as he passed by. He looked at me and I smiled at him.
No words can define the spark that started on the first day of school. I sat down by a tree in the mini Sunken Garden of our school and the next thing I knew, I was grinning at everything I saw. My day was complete and I was glowing with the radiance of the sun.

——-to be continued———-

nine_punXxX:
    i rule
    i roc
    i don’t want you
    you suck
    i hate men
    and all its kinds
    i love women
    who can be men in their minds
    so who’s to tell me
    what i should dress like
    i won’t be the lady
    for i am psych!
    i won’t care
    if you won’t care
    i won’t care
    if you blackmail to scare
    i won’t care
    if you like me
    i won’t care
    if you don’t like me
    don’t go on trying to stop me from changing
    this is what i’ve been wanting
    a lifetime consideration
    take note:
    this is not a rebellion
 
houdini
    now you see me,
    next time you don’t
    i can show you my face
    but my feelings, i won’t
    i can escape from reality
    i can escape from the world
    i am houdini
    the escape artist and lord

fuEgo
    the egos of the f*cking
    the fire within him
    you’ll feel it burning
    you’ll feel it blazing!
    stupid and dumb and a jackhead
    cursed and reversed
    again and again and again
    the fire repeats the cursed verse

dark angel
    travels within the night
    serene yet unkind
    be careful of what you speak
    for you won’t feel the "weak"
    behind them is a brawler
    a bloody destroyer
    those who try to come near
    shall fear
    the vain
    the pain
    and the penetration of a haunting spear

hityltily
    insipired
    and
    expired
    unsure of what to say
    when everyday
    is a new day
    of flattery,
    love,
    hope,
    and comfort..
    stupid, i know
    but lies are sweet
    who’s to resist?
    especially when he starts singin’..
        have i told you lately that i love you?

continued

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i stopped to think "why can’t they be together?"

"i mean, they’re perfectly look fine together.."

and my thoughts were answered:

"so, how is she?"

"well, we’ve been pretty close. thanks to you.."

"well, it was nothing.."

i thought i saw pain in her eyes..

"it was a BIG thing! if it wasn’t for you, we could’ve been like this.."

he pointed their table and the table on the other side of the canteen

"islands away!"

"hahaha.. stop being so corny please."

"fine. so, are you done with yor hot chocolate? i think dad’s lookin’ for us."

"why is your dad looking for us?"

"hey, he’s OUR dad.. we’re bestfriends remember??"

"right.. your dad even calls us ‘my children’ whenever he tells the ‘my-children-where-could-you-have-been-on-this-late-hour-of-the-night’ speech."

"hahaha.."

i accidentally choked on my hot chocolate

and ouch!

i spilled some on my shirt!!

"come on, let’s go to my dad’s office.. he’s already waiting for us"
"okay, okay.. i’m going"

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TO BE CONTINUED…

this is a story of a girl..

it was raining hard

the heavens were cryin’ and so was her heart..

everybody mourned

it was a sad day for all of them, except for her bestfriend

they sat talkin inside the school canteen..

drinkin’ hot chocolate..

as i passed by them, i overheard A LOT

i got stuck

i was interested

i sat on the table next to them.

and the conversation went on..

"yeah, he was all i ever needed."

"why?"

"i don’t know. he’s such a nice person."

"what about me? i’m also as nice as he is..plus, i have the looks"

"stop joking!"

"okay, okay..hehe.."

"i really don’t know how to comfort you.i’m sorry."

"it’s okay. just stay with me. having someone around makes it all better."

"okay."

and so i had a sip of my own hot chocolate..

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TO BE CONTINUED…

and so i felt depressed
when you felt depressed

i felt happiness
and so did you

is it just me
or is it fate
or just fantasy

dreaming of times
when fate, fantasy and destiny were true
when anything was possible
remembering those times
when our tandem was unstoppable

i am sorry
i betrayed
i didn’t trust
i played
on you
on US
on every single moments we had
i am sorry

when i see you again this summer
i promise to make everything better

i am sorry
i am sorry

i know you like me
and you’ll forgive me

but you don’t love me

when i feel depressed
do you too?

you feel happiness
(with someone else)
and so i try to feel it too..

i thought i knew you

i wanted to be with you always

it is because i trusted you more than him

i hated him because of what you told me

you destroyed him!

but now that i know the truth (that you’re just like him),

now that i’ve seen it,

now that i’ve been through it,

i shall feel the same towards you..

you don’t trust me

you should’ve said that a long ago

so that i wouldn’t expect from you

so that i won’t trust you too

now you’re like a shadow

you try to find ways to get through to me

but i won’t let that happen

because you are only a shadow—-

you can follow me but you can’t get past me..

i cannot run from you

but i can hide in the dark

i will be what i was in front of you 15 years ago

but with a different face

a different name

a different scar

hahaha..

you won’t even notice it.

now is the right time for you to not trust me

but i can’t not love you for not trusting me

maybe you want to protect me

in a suffocating way

i hate shadows

especially my cursed one

so help me God!

21st century song…meaning, mga latest hits na inuulit-ulit kong kantahin..

mr. brightside-the killers

cake songs

hands down, vindicated-dashboard confessional

barely breathing, half life-duncan shiek

one good reason, i miss you, anthem part 2-blink182

the ghost of you, helena, welcome to the black parade, famous last words, i don’t love you-my chemical romance

jeepney, nakapagtataka, she don’t-spongecola

think of laura, so slow-mymp

sorry na-parokya ni edgar

naked, fall to pieces, girlfriend-avril lavigne

mata, minamalas-mojofly

panalangin-moonstar88

loneliness-laura pausini

the chronicles of life and death, a ghost of you-good charlotte

cry me a river-justine timberlake

unbreakable, diary, karma, my boo, if i ain’t got you-alicia keys

caught up, my boo-usher

bakit part 2-mayonnaise

just a girl, exgirlfriend-no doubt

rich girl-gwen stefani

i know, i found a way-drake bell

my dad the rock star theme song

forgetful lucy-adam sandler

someone’s watching over me, the math-hilary duff

all i want is you today-southborder

martyr nyebera, girlfriend, chiksilog, narda-kamikazee

jimmy, time of your life, holiday, basket case-greenday

sunday morning-maroon5

unwritten, these words-natasha bedingfield

all i’ve got-the used

fix you, the scientist-coldplay

waltz-hale

love song for no one, no such thing, your body is a wonderland-john mayer

cater to you-destiny’s child

irreplaceable-beyonce knowles

yea.. i know some of ‘em are obsolete but hey, didn’t you realize that you only notice things when they start to fade away..or worse..when they’re gone! hahaha..

nuthin’ much to say..

cater to you-destiny’s child

evolution sa kanyang HAIR…

HELENA (short black hair)

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THE GHOST OF YOU (Elvis Presley black hair)

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WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE (boy-cut yellowish-beige-white-peach hair..he’s gon’ blond!!)

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d bah?

or if you can’t see the videos, here’s a picture..

HELENA

THE GHOST OF YOU

WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE

2 songs entitled ghost of you by different bands but which one’s the hottest?

the one that can hit right into your deeper core?

the one you can relate to..

(they have diff. lyrics by the by..)

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEiZQ4Wwx24

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GOOD CHARLOTTE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aG5XaQ7a1Fg

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cno ang MAS?

whose ‘fix you’ is better?

the original composers (coldplay) or the pinoy version (hale)

COLDPLAY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRUkGDGbJpk

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HALE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HblcIXv28t4

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cno ang MAS?